Forgiveness... and Self-Love

This morning I had breakfast with a woman I used to consider a rival, someone who never seemed to like or support me for reasons I couldn't understand. And today we became friends. Through two hours of conversation, prompted by her courageous choice to apologize. What a gift to receive - healing those stories that felt so real to me for many years - all Illusion. Misconceptions. In such a short time span, it all moved and forgiveness flowed. I could see the results of some DEEP work she has been doing to let go of patterns that weren't working for her. She has put some serious time and effort into understanding how to surrender and let go of control. And it showed in the joy and lightness of her whole body - her smile.

Amazing!

What happened next, though, surprised me even more. I had suggested that she listen to a meditation I recorded a week ago, titled Purifying Breath, to help clear her body of any last energetic pieces that still had her attached to the stories we had discussed and the job she just left. I've been recommending this meditation to several of my friends and clients since I made it because of the power Breath has to heal us.

So, I left the restaurant, feeling a little righteous about how good a person I must be that she wanted to even reach out to heal the gap between us after so many years. How when you are loving and kind, people remember that and I am obviously such a loving person - well, at least some of the time. Owning the fact that I was also pretty power-hungry when we worked together, but not that bad, right? Yes, I was wallowing a bit in my old familiar story of being the "victimized" one in the situation. 

While also feeling so grateful that the distance I'd felt between us for years had now cleared.

When I got home, I sat down for my daily meditation practice and decided to take my own advice and listen to the Purifying Breath meditation. (I've been trying to take my own advice more often lately to see if it works!) The meditation started off well, I was breathing and following along to my voice ... until we got to the piece about forgiveness.

And the tears started and wouldn't stop.

The pure gift of Love that my new friend showed me today humbled me to my core. Her courage and strength of character. Her commitment to her OWN work and clearing the way for this through Loving her Self so deeply. Her humility in sharing all of the messy pieces with me. Teaching me Forgiveness in a way that melts my heart.

Thank you.

Thank you for your Love, my Friend. I honor you.

What a gift.

My heart opened in my meditation to other places that I have been keeping a tight, hard boundary of righteousness around. Places where I believed that forgiveness would never be possible. I have some work to do there. Loving my Self first. Allowing forgiveness for my Self. And slowly, healing the places where perhaps it was also all story, illusion. Continuing to allow my own Truth to guide me.

But now I have this beautiful example to help me feel what is possible. Such sweet release. xoxoxo

​"Divine Teacher, Beloved Friend, I bow to you Again and Again
Lotus sitting on the water, beyond all time and space, this is your way, this is your grace." ~ Ong Namo

Vivienne Gerard - Healer / Guide / Lover of Souls and Humanity 
Clearing Past Patterns to Co-Create an Empowered NOW
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